Saturday, January 11, 2003

Dear Diary Saturday, some more...

Today has not exactly been the kind of day I was expecting. I took my shower, got ready to go shopping, took all of my vitamins, including a new multivitamin with "extra energy" booster in it and in a matter of twenty minutes, I was so dizzy I could barely stand! We went shopping anyways and I have been fighting the dizziness ever since. I am not sure if it has to do with being sick, the vitamins, or something more serious. As evening is coming on, it seems to be lessening up. I have taken a nice long hot bubble bath with menthol to break up any more congestion and have been drinking lots and lots of fluids to see if that is helping. If I wake up like this tomorrow, I am going to the emergency room...seriously...as I don't like feeling like this.

On a better note, looking forward to starting back up to the gym. I think my immune system is doing a pretty darn good job of fighting off the ickiness and so I feel pretty secure knowing I won't be picking up anything too easily, like syphillis or typhoid, while trying to work out. However, I found out that somebody that I HATE is going at the same time I am going, so I am going to do my damndest to make sure that this person realizes how much I hate him if they decide to approach me. All in all, it will be a good time!!!

Dear Diary Saturday...

Oh, what a horrible Friday! I woke up with the WORST attitude about work, continued it INTO work, and ended up leaving early as I was tired of being there! Here was the issue: Our jobs, the three Research people, involves handling our own faxes, our own e-mails, the customer service department phone logs that are forwarded to us, THE RESEARCH IN BOX, THE CORRESPONDENCE IN BOX, THE PRECERT IN BOX, and THE APPEALS IN BOX...the four latter being for all three of us. Well, I have done all of my stuff PLUS handle the last four BY MYSELF for many a months. The other two gals are not lazy, they are incredibly busy, just like I am. That also does not include any project my boss or the Pit Boss gives me on top of it. So, we find out we can come in on Saturday (today) to get the appeals taken care of, as they have not been touched because I have been to overwhelmed. Mind you, it would not be over time, just comp time. Well, I come in two hours of comp time each and every day just to keep MY desk current so I was very, very pissed about why I should come in this Saturday to do a job that should have been handled by the three of us instead of just me....I thought it was there turn! So, I informed them I was not going to be coming in and I am sure, it pissed them off. SO THE FUCK WHAT! I had other very personal reasons why I would not be coming in today, but the major reason is that I am just so tired of doing the majority of the work on the research team!!

Anyways, thanks for letting me vent..

Today is going to be a "Lorene restful" day....that involves shopping, cleaning, laundry, doing some straightening, probably some baking, and just doing things I want to do.

Oh, and yesterday, after I left work, I had a wonderful time with Dylan. We went to dinner, rented a movie, giggled and held hands all night, and just relaxed in each other's company...exactly the way it should be......

Thursday, January 09, 2003

Dear Diary Thursday...

I wore the cutest new outfit in the world today....because I HAD a lunch date...and got stood up.......

Anyways, work was busy, but I just did not have the energy or the motivation to kick ass. My body is exhausted from trying to fight this cold, and my mind is exhausted from not sleeping a few times this week and having been insanely busy earlier in the week. I think this is the weekend I have needed for months...a weekend with NOTHING to do but relax, and that is exactly what I plan on doing.

Wish I could be more witty, but I am too tired......

Wednesday, January 08, 2003

Dear Diary Wednesday....

The fogs scares the flying monkeys right out of me! I hate driving in it, I hate being driven in it! So, I made it to work okay, made sure everybody else made it to work okay, had a horrible work day as the insanity intensified today, and then heard that there would be MORE fog on the drive home. And YEP, there was! So, I got home and my mom decided she did not want to go out in the fog as she is just as fearful of it as I am, so we stayed home and I worked out here. Not as intense of a work out as I got at the gym, but a work out nonetheless. And the good news...MORE fog for in the morning.

Oh, and guess what? I think the sickness just played dead because now my nose is back to running AGAIN! Could it just not go away??? But I am not as exhausted, and I believe that has a lot to do with my eating habits. HOWEVER, I did fall off the wagon today and went to Gringos and had a bean burrito and cheese, so that was not very good. But, I did make up for it by having fish for dinner and corn...a couple of my favorites. Thankfully, I get to be spoiled by Dylan on Friday!!

Speaking of being spoiled, Dylan and I are going to Vegas for our "Valentines" and I just can not wait! We do this once a year, just he and I, so we can have some time to reconnect with one another....not being surrounded by familiar family and territory. It should be beautiful weather when we go and he promises to spoil me something silly. How could a girl get so lucky!

Okay, color for tomorrow is turqoise, color for Friday is Rose, color for Saturday is brown, and color for Sunday is Peach...

Tuesday, January 07, 2003

Dear Diary Tuesday....

I win! I win! The cold is on it's evil way out of my body!! I got home from work yesterday, feeling at my very worst, probably due to the fact I had no sleep the night previous, took a hot bubble bath, crawled into bed, was asleep by 7:00 and I awoke this morning feeling WONDERFUL!!!! I have yet to even take cold medicine today! Unfortunately, I have now passed it on to my co-worker who ended up in the doctor's office today and then going home sick. But at least I got rid of it!!!

Anyways, just got back from the gym and it was a great work out. I was hoping to bump into JJ but did not see her. I did my two 15 minute work outs and then a 30 minute high aerobic work out and then a 5 minute cool down. I also added my 5 pound weights to each ankle and by the time I was off of the treadmill I honestly, could not feel my legs! However, I feel fine now, now sore legs. Maybe I am not as in bad of shape as I thought! And the changing of my eating habits is going really well, however, I think I am going to be sprouting bunny ears and a tail soon as I have consumed MUCH more "rabbit food", as Toni likes to call it, than I usually do...and if you have ever seen my love of salads, you know that it is A LOT MORE! However, I think that all of this change has helped me a great deal, even though it has been a recent change.

Work was chaotic today, as usual. The Pit Boss was having a horrible day and so I took it upon myself to annoy her into a good mood. And thankfully, it worked and I still have a job! That is going to be one of my new goals.....trying to change a person's bad day into a good day. However, it will not be happening on Thursdays as you all know, Thursdays are not good day for me....why, who knows...they just are not good days.

Okay, color for TOMORROW is White......

Monday, January 06, 2003

Dear Diary Monday...

I give up. The cold has one, I am a huge boogery loser!! I can not stop sneezing, my nose won't stop dripping, I hate this!! I am not a good sick person. I am pathetic and weepy! I did not sleep ONE freakin' minute last night because my cold medicine buzzed me AND my nose would not stop...regardless of what I took. I was going to go to the gym tonight after work but everyone at my work has me paranoid I am going to pick up "something" because my immune system is so down. So, I ate a very healthy lunch, no snacks other than vegetables, a healthy dinner AND a HUGE glass of orange juice. I have drank more water than I think my system can actually HOLD. Can this not come to a dramatic end....one big sneeze, snot flies every where and I magically am all better???? Make it happen, Toni!!!(can you hear the pathetic whining yet?)

Work is hell. The beginning of the year with new plans always draws so many phone calls. I have been on the phones all day AND trying to keep my desk up, which is impossible. Last week, the two days I worked were both 13 hour shifts and I am not doing that again this week. I work maybe one or two hours early in the morning but leave on time....I want to go to the gym and be home at a decent hour!

Tonight will be me an my bubble bath, my new novel, a cup of hot tea, and hopefully (please pray for me!) some sleep. I don't make a nice tired person.....ask Toni....

OH! And thank you for the three hour phone call last night JJ. I have not giggled like that in a LONG time! I think my folks that I was one the phone with either an obscene phone call OR a phone sex operator........

Sunday, January 05, 2003

Dear Diary Sunday....

Okay, there are a few things I need to get down in writing that are bugging me, so here goes:
1. I hate being bored and I hate boring people. I hate getting into any type of "rut". There are people I actually AVOID because they bore me so much, and if you know me, I usually can have a good time any place and with anyone. If I am getting bored, I remove myself from the situation and I have found myself doing that lately with a lot of things and a lot of people. I need to change my attitude.
2. I am not a good patient. I like taking care of other people, but I can see why people want to avoid me. I look like hell, my attitude is in the toilet, and my nose won't quit running.
3. Who actually buys the products that you see being sold on tv?
4. "The Exorcist" version they show on tv is STILL scary!
5. Working out with a runny nose is kinda gross.
6. Cold medicine makes it so I can't concentrate for very long on just one thing. Like I was saying earlier......
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Dear Diary Sunday....

The cold wins, I give up. Dylan had to bring me home early last night as my nose would not stop running...it might have had something to do with the sub zero temperatures that he keeps his room in. However, I was miserable and wanted a hot bath. I got home, jumped into a hot bath and sipped a hot cup of tea, watched a bit of tv, and then just went to bed. Did not really sleep, but kind of tossed and turned but in a "I am warm and comfortable and can think clearly in the dark" kind of way. I then woke up this morning and I feel like I have gone several rounds with a heavy weight boxer. My ears hurt, my throat is a bit less painful, I can't quit sneezing, and my eyes are watery. I give up. I just am going to let this stupid cold have its turn and be done with it. Out of all the colds, this is pretty mild, but I still feel exhausted. I think I would rather take all of the icky symptoms and have a lot of energy then have very mild symptoms with NO energy.

The Witch Almanac Calendar color of the day for us is yellow. Either wear it and feel the positive energy or surround yourself in it today. Yellow is associated with air, inelligence, imagination, mind power, confidence, success, action, attraction, friendship, organization, and success...hope this explains it a little more for you Shane....I should have put that tid bit of info on yesterday!!