Dear Diary Friday...

Let's just say, "IT HAS STARTED" and everything is falling into place!

Dear Diary Tuesday...

Today was a MUCH better day....sickness is all gone. I came to work with the same positive energy, the same need to complete any and all projects. I came, I saw, I conquered.

I left work and went and had a pedicure and a manicure. It felt good to be forced into relaxation, my muscles being manipulated, my toes beautified. It was heaven and bliss rolled into one.

Now I am home, relaxed and verging on tired. I have wrapped Mom's gifts, her cake is ordered, and all looks well for her 66th birthday tomorrow. I will be home early tomorrow to take her to dinner, wherever she wants.

To say that I am totally prepared and looking forward to my weekend would be true. My mind feels more clear and calmer than it has in a few weeks. I am awaiting patiently the time I can spend with Dylan, and this time will be ALL his, not torn between negative thoughts and negative energy. It feels good to have moved those forces from my life, to center myself, to realize life is TRULY what you make it.

And thank you to Dee, for the wonderful e-mail chats we have been having about topics we enjoy. You are my inspiration, my role model, one of my dearest friends and I love you more with each day.

Dear Diary Monday, part two....

I don't know how I did it, I am not exactly sure when it hit, but I managed to make myself extremely ill today. I have been so sick since noon that I managed to drive to the tanning salon, get my tan, and get home. I have done absolutely zilch since I got home, other than make me some chicken noodle soup and Sprite....and the only time I drink Sprite is when I am sick. I am starting to wonder if it is either 1) food poisoning from the cut up vegetables I took in today that had been in my fridge for a week or 2) too MANY vegetables at one time. I had about a 1 1/2 cups of carrot and 1 1/2 cups of celery. Whatever the cause, I am not enjoying it.

Work was pretty busy today, but I accomplished a great deal and plan on accomplishing as much tomorrow plus some. I really am enjoying the amount I am getting completed and the good attitude that I am keeping with it. Plus, the benefit of not having it on my mind all weekend has been a bonus.

This weekend is already shaping up as well. I am not sure what I am doing Friday, but Dylan and I are spending Saturday as a "just for us day" and then Sunday, I am going shopping with Mom to Costco and Petsmart....should be fun!

Dear Diary Monday...

I was exhausted again last night, so I was in bed by 6:45 pm. Unfortunately, for some reason, after about two hours of sleep I awoke and was so hot that I tossed and turned the remainder of the night until 3:50 am and then I just got up and got ready for work. By the time I had driven into work this morning I had a headache that is trying very hard to become a migraine.

Dinner last night was wonderful. I did steaks, shrimp marinated in lemon pepper, and salmon, along with a potato salad, carmelized onions, and grilled mushrooms. Everyone enjoyed it immensely. I also managed to get all of my laundry done, the hamster cage cleaned, my room straightened up, the bushes on the side of the house trimmed, and more flowers planted. I guess I had a good reason to be tired last night!

I have already accomplished quite a bit at work today and plan on getting up current, if not ahead, in our projects this week. After work tonight I plan on going tanning and then to the gym. I hope to be at the gym tonight and tomorrow, and will be skipping Thursday as that is my MOM'S BIRTHDAY! She is turning 66 this year!!

Okay, wish me luck with getting rid of the migraine today and I hope everyone has a wonderful Tuesday! Keep your positive energy going!!!

Dear Diary Monday...

Happy Memorial Day!

It is only 9:15 am and I have already scrubbed out Nib's cage, I am on my third load of laundry, have the steaks marinating in a home made marinade (1/2 cup soy, 1 tsp lemon juice, a can tomato sauce, 1/4 cup brown sugar, fresh herbs, garlic pepper, 1 tsp chopped fresh garlic, tbsp of apple vinegar, a couple of drops of liquid smoke), and am about to head upstairs to get my room clean. I am not sure what my problem is lately but every single day of my time off I am waking up at 6:30 am and am full of energy, which goes away by 7:00 pm. I love the waking up part, but when my energy is gone right when it use to be starting...don't like that part.

Today I am barbecuing for the folks. I know we are going to have steak and shrimp, but after that not sure. I am going to the store so I will probably pick up some corn, some salad, and stuff to make WW fudge...I think.

Is it sick to say I am looking forward to my work week? I have this new found desire to really throw myself into my job and get as much accomplished as I can. I am really enjoying having all of my weekends open, mentally.

Dear Diary Sunday,

Friday I spent the day delivering flowers to graves and then picking up dinner with the folks and then falling asleep at a ridiculously early hour. All in all, a very beautiful day.

Saturday I got up and went to my weight in, then to Saturn, and then Dylan and I got together and went to Shane and Chet's. Can I ever express enough how much I love those two boys and how impressed I am with their accomplishments?!? The backyard is amazing and when it is completed, will be totally breathtaking. Shane and Chet described how each and every section of the yard will evolve, what plants they will be using, the fountain, etc. It is going to be unbelievable but nothing less than perfect from those two. The four of us then decided, spontaneously to go to dinner and to a movie. We went to the Olive Garden where we were entertained by the coke sniffing hostess. Shane and I managed to polish off so much salad that our waiter actually commented he had NEVER delivered so much salad to one table. We then headed over to Jordan Landing to see "The Day After Tomorrow" which was an "okay" movie but made wonderful by the company of the men I was surrounded by. We then left and took my boys home and Dylan and I parted company. The day could not have been more wonderful and again, I thank the Fates for brining such wonderful men into my life.

Today, Dylan and I are going to be having lunch with his entire family and then going to find gifts for my Mama's birthday. I think that I am going to try and make this an extra special day for her because she is STILL SMOKE FREE! She is a true inspiration to me. Anyone that has ever smoked know how hard it is to quit. But to totally quit in one day and not go back, after over 50 years of smoking....that is a phenomenal feat and one that makes me proud to have her as my Mother. She is the single strongest woman I have ever met and if I could be half of who she is, I will be honored.

Tomorrow is a day of fun here at home. I am going to barbecue for the folks, and I believe it will be steak and shrimp, but menu is subject to change.