Tuesday, July 29, 2003

Dear Diary Tuesday....

I thought today was going to be a horrible day....one year ago is the official date of when Scott passed. I have worried and fretted, thinking I would never make it through. Apparently I did not give myself the credit I deserved....I had a wonderful day. It was busy, but I enjoyed it. I thought about him a lot, but all of it was good. I think I am at the point where I realize I will have bad days, but I am thankful for the time I had with the boy and no matter how mad I get at the situation which he created, I will love him regardless. How could you not love somebody that lived to see you either turn red with embaressment or because you wanted to punch him??

Work was insane, but not as bad as yesterday. I think with my attitude change, it is reflecting on everything and everyone around me. I can not stand those that WANT to create drama in their life and those that refuse to remove the drama. I don't know about others, but I don't like chaos!!! I see in others the need to be the center of attention at all times, and I just have to ask myself, "Why would you want that?"

After work I came home to do some shopping and then finished my planting. Yes, yes I bought more plants but it was because it is the end of the season and they throw away the plants that don't have homes!!! Oh, and mums were on sale and those are my absolute favorite flower, so I bought 12 of those!!!

I can't WAIT for Friday! Dylan and I are just spending time together, relaxing, seeing a movie, shopping, and getting his car fixed early in the morning. I love days that we can have some quality time together. Keeping my fingers crossed I don't end up sick again!!!

Oh, and can I just say how much I am looking forward to Wendover.........

Sunday, July 27, 2003

Dear Diary Sunday...

It was a fantastic day! By 9:00 am I had my bedroom completely cleaned, including scrubbing down the windows and having my lace drapes laundered and put back up. All of my statues had been thoroughly dusted, the shelves, everything. I also had three loads of laundry completed and steaks for tonight's barbecue marinating. It is nice to have a jump on the day! After breakfast I headed outside and weeded all of my backyard and side yard and got some new plants into the ground. This afternoon I did a wonderful barbecue, cleaned up, and headed out to the front yard to do the weeding. Unfortunately, that is when my headache decided to hit, so I decided to call it a day, jump into an ice cold shower and relax.

I love days like today. I can move at my own pace, do stuff that I want to do, not be rushed to fill an obligation. Actually, that is what I have loved about this whole weekend.....not being rushed. I could take a nap if I wanted to, however long I wanted it to me, and however many times I wanted.

This week is already looking great, as well. I am looking forward to work this week, just because I am still enjoying my job. And mostly, because I have Friday off and it is going to be a day just for Dylan and I and HOPEFULLY this time I won't get sick two hours into it!!!