Friday, December 10, 2004

Dear Diary Friday...

Mood.....happy but angry.

The saying of "You can pick your friends but you can't pick your family" is so very true. Each and every day I am so thankful for the friends I have in my life and for their individual quirks and personalities. Even those things that drive me insane about them, I still love. However, in the case of my family, I can't say the same.

I have had a knock down drag out with my sister...again. This time, like the last time, I am not allowing her to use me as her emotional punching bang. The problem with this scenario is that SHE is not understanding it. She use to have a very prominent and important part in my life. After the argument we had last year, she is no longer in such a standing....she is only a relative. If I do not allow my FRIENDS to treat me that way, I am not sure why a family member would view it as okay. Anyways, after a very emotional day yesterday, a worst night, I am feeling much better this morning. I am hurt, I am angry, but I am strong. I won't allow her to ruin my outlook on the rest of the world, but in my own way, she will feel my wrath this time. I have learned mostly to keep my mouth shut and NOT express a feeling or opinion around her. I will treat her like the rest of my better and no worse than any other stranger on the street.

Good news of the day is it sounds like Connie is starting to feel a tiny bit better. Again, I am very proud of her for taking responsibility for her health AND her actions.

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Dear Diary Thursday...

Happy Birthday Toni!!!!!!

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Dear Diary Tuesday...

Mood....ecstatic AND relieved.

I am very pleased to announce that my work, in the first time since I started here, actually gave us a bonus for Christmas....YEAH!

And Constance, don't you EVER scare me like that again! After worrying why I had not heard from her, I called her work....nothing. Then I called her cell phone and talked to the most drunk Connie ever. Come to find out, after I made her give the phone to Lindi, that Constance had been throwing up blood, went to the ER, and had an emergency upper GI. They have discovered she has a hiadal hernia and took a biopsy. She seems to be doing fine now and Lindi is taking wonderful care of her. Send her love and energy.

Constance....BIG trouble for scaring me like that.....

Monday, December 06, 2004

Dear Diary Monday...


Yes, the dead shall walk the Earth and their name is Lorene.

That is how I feel after the Saturday and Sunday vomiting fest which started at Shane's house (again Shane, I am so sorry....). I believe that the Fates stepped in on Saturday and said, "Let's teach Lorene a valuable lesson about drinking and let's give her the FLU" and so it was done. I spent the night in Shane's bathroom and then moved to being sick on the street all the way home, then being sick in my own bathroom and then it continued on to Sunday and I spent the day either in bed or on a couch. Food was not my friend, water was not my friend, Tylenol PM WAS my friend. Needless to say, I don't think I will be drinking alcohol for awhile, and there are even some foods I will be staying away from. Other than that, I had such a wonderful time at Shane's house with everyone. Oh, and Shane and Chet's home is so incredibly beautiful!!! It should be on the cover of "House Beautiful" and "Bette Homes and Gardens"...THAT is how spectacular their home is. I would say a lot more about Saturday, but I honestly don't remember a great deal about it.....