Tuesday, October 21, 2003

Dear Diary Tuesday, part deux...

My father's surgery went wonderfully. The doctor did not expect this cataract on his left eye to be as horrible as the right eye was, but it ended up being. However, they numbed the eye with drops and decided not to do a nerve block on the eye, like they did with the other eye, so he needed no anesthesia and his recovery time was a lot less. I actually took him out to dinner afterwards and he did great...absolutely no pain. There were two "bad" things about this surgery.....1) when trying to put in an IV his veins decided to "cramp" which is very painful. After the cramp subsided and they finally got the IV placed it was just too painful, so they took it out, and 2) during surgery, near the very end when they are placing the lens, the doctor told my dad to hold his eye very still....which he didn't....which caused a small hemorrhage in the white part of the eye, which is the equivalent to your arm getting bruised....it is not painful and does not cause ANY damage but looks bad. The one side of his eye is all red and will be for 5 days. Tomorrow is his follow up appointment and then we are all done with surgeries for this year....YEAH!!!

Bad part of today....my stupid CHECK ENGINE SOON light came on....AGAIN! I had the bad sensor replaced on Saturday....or so I thought when I went into Saturn, but it came on again! My car is driving fine, I think that either the sensor is bad again OR they did not replace it the first time. Needless to say, I was NOT a friendly customer when I called to schedule my appointment......

Dear Diary Tuesday....

I woke up this morning in an "observational" type of mood. Maybe it has to do something with the fact that I actually did not make it to sleep until about 3:15 this morning, maybe it has something to do with my father's final surgery is today, maybe it is just me? Anyways, the observations so far this week:

1) I watched a friend say, without using any words, that they needed space and time. Both that I freely give, as I never want somebody to feel as though I am smothering them. I leave the time up to the individual to do with as they need and to decide if they are needing space or just pushing away the friendship.

2) I watched a friend destroy an innocent friendship. The friend took away the trust, the honesty, the time it took to build the friendship and within a matter of minutes throw it all away. The reason? They were having a bad day. Watching a friendship die like that made me kind of sad.

3) I watched a friend blossom into a stronger, steadier person. The growth, both individually and as a couple, over the last few months has been inspiring. Walking down a path of individuality with head held high, shoulders thrown back, cherishing everything that life has to offer and still wanting to all others to be involved.

4) I watched a family member go through some of the hardest medical times so far in his life. His strength and determination has been inspiring. If I was half the person as that man, I would have accomplished a great feat in my lifetime.

It will be nice when I am able to go home and take a nap.....

Sunday, October 19, 2003

Dear Diary Sunday...

Oh, was I a lazy kitten today! Honestly, writing up this blog is the most I have done. I have watched a lot of tv, took a nap, ate dinner, fed the cats......pretty lazy. But after this last weekend, I really needed it. Let me catch you up....

Thursday: Yes, I had Thursday and Friday off. On Thursday took the parents to the new Sears for some new shoes and ended up leaving about $300 poorer. Well, we needed a few more things than shoes. We then went to dinner with 13 of my dads friends, who are all very adorable. His best friend since he was a child has Polio so I was his personal, willing, serving girl. I just love old people!

Friday: I was up and cleaning the entire house. After non-stop cleaning, I took a break and got ready to go out with some friends and Dylan. Shane and Chet came over to the house to see the outside decorations and ended up just making my mother's entire day by enjoying some of her quilts. We then left and took them to look at a few homes we have been looking at. Then, Chet and Shane had never been to the Macaroni Grill so we went for some good food, great company, and a change of scenery. We then met the Netzlers up at the Gateway to go to a new haunted house....Dark Realm. The place was FANTASTIC!! We ALL jumped once or twice and I plan on visiting it again!

Saturday: Had a horrible experience getting my car serviced, which I won't go into. After getting back home I showered and got ready and went out with Dylan for our day together. We went to Gardner Village which was hosting its annual "Witches Night Out" and they extended it for two days this year. Dylan bought me a beautiful ornate stand that holds copper cast painted jack o lanterns that are candle holders. We then went to dinner, did some running around, and then back to his house where we TOOK A NAP. Yes, you read it correctly.....how sad is that! We were both so tired, and had not slept well the night before, that we took a nap together.

Sunday: A whole bunch of nothing!

Well, once again, being with some of my wonderful friends put my energy back on track and gave me a "lighter" feeling again. It is so wonderful to connect with individuals in such a way that everything is equal....the giving of the energy and the taking. Thank you again, my friends.