Dear Diary Thursday...

Last night was great. I went to the gym and then Dylan and I headed over to Shane's to pick up our invitations. To say that they are absolute perfection would be an understatement....Shane did a phenomenal job on them and I am honored to be sending them out. Yep, guess there is now backing out now that I have the invitations. After we got home, Dylan and I both crashed early as I think our bodies are wiped out from exhaustion trying to beat a sickness.

I am trying to be good and do the "gym thing" on a regular basis and get back on track with my Weight Watchers, as I have put on approximately 10 of the pounds I have taken off. Luckily I have a wonderful man who is going to be dieting at the same time as I am, so eating better will be much easier. And I was more motivated this morning when I put on a pair of pants that fit last week but don't fit today. However, I also noticed that I had up them in the dryer on accident so they were a little but shorter than last week ( by about 4 inches ) so they have shrunk, but I am chalking it up to another reason why I need to get the weight off!! Plus, my wedding dress is heavy enough without all of my additional fat!!!!

Oh and we also picked out the pictures that will be displayed at the wedding. Again, Shane is just unbelievably talented in EVERYTHING he does, and photography is no exception. He made me look stunning and the pictures of Dylan and I together are just beyond adorable.

Wishing everyone a wonderful Thursday!!!

Dear Diary Wednesday...

I believe the worst of the illness is past. I ended up staying home on Monday because my cramping was out of control and I was running a fever. I also was extremely white (whiter than normal) when Dylan got home from work and he wanted to take me to the ER....and of course that didn't happen. But I believe I am on the mend because I have slept throught the night for two nights in a row.

Weekend is shaping up to be extremely busy. Friday I am spending the evening with our "wedding line" and a few additional friends, going to a barbecue in the mountains somewhere. It will be a nice evening of relaxing. Toni and Rob were gracious enough to host this event for Dylan and I and I am really looking forward to it. Thank you again Toni and Rob.

Saturday is my Bridal Shower, once again being hosted by Toni, and I am looking forward to that as well. I hope it is quick and painless, as Toni has ANOTHER bridal shower right after that she has to attend. Then after that, I believe my Mom and I are going to do some shopping to see if we can find her attire for the wedding. If we don't locate it on Saturday, we will be shopping on Sunday. Hopefully somewhere in all of that, I will find a little time to relax, maybe cook dinner or something.

Much love and energy is going out to Shane right now. He is such an amazing man and does so very, very much for everyone else that the least I can do is give him all of my energy and share that with his family as well. Send him your love and energy as well, if you can spare it.....he is needing it!!!!

Well, it is official....one month from today is the wedding. Oh, and one month and one DAY from today the wedding is over!! YEAH!! It will be nice to get back to some normallcy and rid myself of some fake friendships....at least not putting out any unnecessary energy to them. And honestly, as Shane keeps reminding me, I am starting to get excited for the wedding. It's true, It's true.....

Dear Diary Sunday....

Weekend has been crap!!! I got the stomach flu on Friday morning and it has not loosened its grip on me yet. I did manage to pick up the beautiful Bridesmaid's dressed and get my Daddy fitted in his suit....but that has been all I have managed to do this weekend. This bug has kept me on the couch in pain all weekend long...not exactly how I plan on spending my weekends!!!

I have discovered that my initital thought about removing people from my life was not exactly the right decision. I have put a lot of energy into a friendship that has been extremely one sided and dishonest. I can't continue to keep putting out my energy and my love, only to be excluded from the other person's life....and only involved when it is at their convenience. But I believe change is always a good thing, so I am not looking at this "change" in a relationship as a starting point. I can have "friends" that are not extremely close, and then I can have friends that are like siblings.....but siblings that I love and cherish vs the ones that I currently have. Everyone grows and changes, and it is time for that in my life.

Oh, and speaking of siblings....my other sister can now go fuck herself. She made a huge scene at my niece's wedding on Friday night when I told her I had to take my folks home. After that, she is now going to be treated like all of my other siblings....as acquaintances. My priority is to my folks, and if they want to leave an event and I am their ride, then we leave.

And all of my love and energy is with Shane and Chet currently. The Boys have had a rough week and weekend and I just want them to know how much I love and appreciate them and would give anything in the Universe to help them and be there for them. I hope you know how much I adore you both.