Dear Diary Thursday,

I finally got all of the evil out of my system. Not sure what took over this week, well, I do have a small idea of what it COULD have been, but it is gone now. After dropping my Mom after last night from her last weekly PT visit, I went home and had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for dinner, took a hot bath, got in bed and read and read and read....watched some t.v.....read some more....and just couldn't sleep. My psyche was telling me it was time to deal with the evil and get it GONE! So I did. The bad side to the story is that our power went out sometime last night so I woke up to my alarm clock blinking. I grabbed my cell phone and I had overslept by AN HOUR so I was running like a crazy person all morning so I could get to work on time. Since they have had the "crack down" at my work about being late, and since I have NEVER been late one day in my life to work, I was killing myself to get here!

Oh, the weekend is going to be nice. I don't care what happens this weekend, as long as some part of it has SOMETHING to do with Halloween AND I get to take one nap. I know it is funny, but I love NAPPING! I usually only sleep for about 20 minutes, but that is enough for me!

This made me laugh.....LOUDLY....


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And I think this is what Dylan is thinking at every party about me....


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And this is Toni in "cat form"....


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Dear Diary Wednesday...

Okay, my mood was just as shitty as yesterday when I got up, but I have had a Pumpkin Latte from Beans and Brews, had some really great e-mails from my friends, had a co-worker do a bit of a dance for me, talked to a very sweet husband, and I have done everything I could to get my ass in line....and it has worked. It is going to be a great day.

I think my problem yesterday is that I just felt overwhelmed. I have a lot I want to do for Halloween, alot I want to get accomplished before Winter arrives, a lot I want to complete on myself, and just could not see a light at the end of the tunnel....not even a small flashlight bulb flickering on and off because the batteries were running out....nothing. But I have decided that I do not NEED to get all of those things accomplished RIGHT NOW. I need to learn to relax, to take a step back, and realize that I will get things accomplished when they get done. I need to take a moment to breathe, and that is what I am doing.

Oh, and I am also HIGHLY amused at work right now, which helps. I just watched a co-worker have a complete melt-down temper tantrum and I am waiting to see what the outcome of that is. I know, I know....I shouldn't find humor in that, but I did!

Oh, and a big THANK YOU to my friend Alana....she always seems to know what to say and when to say it. Thanks for bringing a smile to my face....

Dear Diary Tuesday,

Oh gawd, I woke up in the foulest, meanest, most evil mood I have been in....ever! Don't know what the problem is....I have been doing mantra's to get myself in a better mood, nothing is working. So, to get it out of my system, here is my list of things that have pissed me off:

1. If there is something that OBVIOUSLY needs to be done (house, work, personal life....etc), don't sit on your ass and wait for SOMEBODY else to do it. Especially in the case of a partnership....if you see something like the floor needs to be mopped, don't wait for the other person to do it....grab the fucking mop and DO IT!

2. Don't be a fucking two-faced bitch. If you don't like somebody, then don't act like you like them just to get something from them. If I don't like you, I don't talk to you unless I NEED TO BECAUSE OF WORK. Don't IM me, don't send me a personal e-mail, I have made it obvious we are NOT FRIENDS.

3. If you hurt somebody's feelings....acknowledge it and apologize for it. I have no problem stepping up and taking responsibility for my actions and can say "I'm sorry" and MEAN IT when I need to. Why can't other people?

4. If you fuck up, acknowledge it! See number 3

5. If you consider yourself a friend, fucking BE ONE! That means you don't just go on and on and on about how you are, see how the other person is. See how their life is going....ask a FUCKING QUESTION. I get really, really tired of being friends for people who want me to be their ear and shoulder, but could give a flying fucking frog about me.

Okay, I think that is it for now....whew! I think I am already feeling better!!!