Dear Diary Saturday...

Dylan sat on my dog.

No, that is not a new rap song or the name for a sexual position. My dog, Tinkerbell, is not the smartest pup in the pound. He crawled right under Dylan when Dylan was in "mid sit" on my couch and Dylan crunched him. Tinker began to scream and yelp and kept it up for about 30 seconds. Dylan, not being around any dogs and especially not living with a small dog ( notorious for being drama queens and sulky bitches) was horrified and I did not think he was ever going to recover. Thankfully, Tinkerbell is doing fine....just a bit sore. I think he got his neck scrunched and one leg, but he is walking just fine, doing all of the doggie things, and having lots and lots of treats. Dylan, on the other hand, has been petrified that he has irreversibly damaged my dog. I think both will recover with time.

Yesterday, after the "dog crunching" incident, was alright. We managed to get to Park City and breathe some real air and see the sun. We then went to an early lunch at Lone Star, went back to my house to check on the dog again, went to Trolley Square, and then rented two movies and crashed. We actually called it a very early evening as I was tired and had wore myself out with worrying about the both of them all day.

Today I think will be better. We are going to go do some window shopping, hang out, go to the Poors for Jeremy's birthday. Hopefully no dogs will be hurt in the events of today *wink*.

I also have not been good about going to the gym this weekend, but have managed to get in some work outs at home. I still feel I am making progress, and I can feel that my energy level has increased. My biggest problem is getting in enough protein every day, namely getting in meat with blood. Yesterday, I had steak and that was the first blood I have had this week. I know, I know, that sounds totally disgusting, but my body craves blood.

Positive thought for the day: Love all regardless of their faults

Dar Diary Friday...

Yesterday was a long, long day. I decided to take the day off from the gym. I figure that three days in a row of working out for 1.5 hours might allow me a day off. I was just so very exhausted all day yesterday and I think it is because I had not slept very well. I came home from work, relaxed, read, took a long hot bubble bath, chatted with Dylan for a little while, and just relaxed my body and my spirit. I was in bed and asleep by 9:00 (had to stay up and watch CSI) and did not wake until 7:30 this morning. Ahhh, wonders what a full night of sleep can do for you.

The two cats are doing much, much better. Yesterday was a bad day for them as well, as the day after the "vet experience" makes them grumpy and lethargic....not that it is much different than any other day for my cats. Cali slept with me last night, wrapped around the top of my head until she insisted that I let her sleep in my arms at about 2:00 this morning. I woke up to both of them running around like crazy insane cats, talkative, and just generally "back to normal". I love a house full of healthy animals!

Today is mine and Dylan's day to spend together. We are going to try to go to Park City, do some window shopping, grab a couple of movies, and just in general, spend some time together. We have not had a chance to really hang out together with both of us feeling completely healthy, so this will be a nice change.

Oh, and I took today off of work!!!

Positive thought: you are not able to run at full throttle every day. Take time to stop and see what is around you, enjoy your surroundings, enjoy what time you have.

Dear Diary Wednesday....

Work was better today because I got to take Toni to LUNCH! She did my taxes, so we went to Gringos and I had two soft beef tacos...and still stayed within my points. The phones were crazy, but that is just a daily thing now AND the Pitboss is out of town, so my world is good.

I did only work until 2:30 today and took Sheba and Cali to the vet. Sheba has decided that she enjoyed the upper respiratory infection that she had last year soooo much that she wanted to do it again this year and Cali is flinging long strings of buggers again from her allergies. All in all, Sheba got two shots, stuff in her nose, and Zithromax for the URI and Cali got a shot in the bum. They did not have such a good day. After that, off to the gym! I had a great time there tonight but I need some help from my friends.....am I doing my stomach crunches on the machine wrong??? The upper part of my stomach/lower part of my chest is hurting and I don't know why....help!!!! Anyways, I did 150 crunches, one mile on the track, and one mile on the elipitcal trainer. It was a helluva lot of fun. And along those same lines, thank you to EVERYONE for being so supportive and so positive. Many of you have no idea that you are models for what I am trying to accomplish.

I am taking a "down night" tonight and did my nails, had a bubble bath, checked all my favorite web sites, and will probably be reading one of the two books I am currently engrossed with. And yes, I "give" and will get "The DaVinci Code" this weekend and read it so we can all have a book discussion night. It is in one of my New Age Magazines and a "must read" for all Witches so I guess I better start reading it or I might lose my membership!!!

Positive thought: Sometimes you just need to go with the flow of the day to keep your energy on track and that might include not doing as much as normal. Know that tomorrow will be better because the enthusiasm will return with your momentary respite.

Dear Diary Tuesday..

Let me just start by saying THANK YOU to all of my friends and the supporters. I had no doubt that you would all be in my corner on me joining Weight Watchers.

Today was my first official "weigh in" and I officially lost.....4.6 pounds and am THRILLED! I start my classes next week on Tuesday, which will be my weekly meeting every night. After I left there, I took off for the gym and did another 2 miles on the track and 130 stomach crunches. Ahhhh, working out is feeling great. And I am going to be "investing" in a great pair of walking shoes, not just stylish ones! Gym is about the only place where I truly do not give a rat's ass as to how stylish I look.

Work was crazy again. It started off by finding out, and this is fantastic news, that the gal that was going to put her dog to sleep DID NOT. Actually, she went in and signed the paper work for the dog to be euthanized and then my vet called her this morning to tell her that they could not put her dog down, they called Great Dane Rescue and they offered to pay all of the dog's medical bills as long as she signed the dog over to them....Which she already had. So, the dog had surgery this morning and they found, are you sitting down, a TOWEL in his stomach and intestines! Thank God that the dog was not euthanized! Well, then I had a total of 5 people call in sick AND I got into a wicked argument with the Pit Boss which ended up with me not speaking to her in anything but a professional manner the remainder of the day. Thank the Goddess she is out of town the remainder of the week!!!

Well, the Tonster is doing my taxes again for me this year because she is the smart one and I am the blond one. BUT I get to take her to lunch for doing it!!! Oh, and maybe I will win her a big stuffed animal when I am in Vegas too!!! I'm thinking something like an alien monkey.....

Positive thought for the day: trust in what you know, your friends. They give you the ability to laugh at yourself, they are your supporters, they are your confidants, and they will kick you when you need it!

Dear Diary Monday...

Congratulations to me for not killing people at work today!

It was one of those days....One co-worker called in sick because her daughter had a fever, my boss was off today, one had to leave because her mother is in the hospital and possibly not going to make it, and then I had to send one home because I could not stand her drama anymore! How do you "suddenly" get acid reflux and "suddenly" find out you have a doctor's appointment?? The other folks that were out had very justifiable reason...The one who's daughter has a fever ended up taking her dog to the vet and having it put to sleep ON TOP of a sick kid with no ex-husband to help her because he is a piece of shit! The "acid reflux" woman just decided that it was too stressful today (we had a major call volume) and decided to have her own drama! I can not stand people like that! Anyways, I handled everything in stride, managed to get a lot done, kept a good sense of humor, and kept everyone that was in my department laughing. All in all, we had a great time today!

And another congratulations to me! I joined Weight Watchers last week and my official "weigh in" is tomorrow. I have kept it pretty low key as I wanted to make sure that I was going to stick with this and I LOVE IT! I have been talking and thinking about it now for over two years and thanks to some wonderful inspirations at my work, and some fantastic friends, I joined and am LOVING IT! It is so simple, I love the meetings, and the support I am finding is overwhelming. The very few people I have told have been very interested in how I am doing and can not believe the energy I have and the positive change it has given me. And to be honest, I wanted a lifestyle change, not another fad diet. Ask me about fad diets, I think I have tried them all!!! But learning how to eat healthy has been wonderful! And don't even get me started about the gym! I went again tonight and did two miles on the track and 100 stomach crunches and still have a bunch of energy!!! And eating out? It is SOOOOOOO simple...I can eat anything but need to watch my portions!

For those few who I have shared this with and who have been so supportive and so full of love, my deepest and sincerest thanks. I have a lot of wonderful people in my life and am grateful to the Goddess each and every day for them.

Positive thought for the day: Be supportive to those in need, to those in dire straight, and the energy you give will come back. Also, allow yourself the same support from others when you are lacking in the energy.

Dear Diary Sunday...

HAPPY 34TH ANNIVERSARY TO MY FOLKS!

Today has been wonderful! I got all of my laundry done, don't ask the amount as it was tremendous! I also cleaned the bathrooms, the hamster cages, and vacuumed the whole house. The only thing I did not manage to complete was cleaning my entire room and dusting the whole house. Oh well, there is tomorrow!

We just returned from dinner....I took them to McGrath's for their anniversary. I felt terrible for our waitress because they gave her an entire room and no other waiter/waitress was having anyone seated in their sections! Our waitress was running like a mad woman. However, the food was excellent and she did a fantastic job and the parent's really enjoyed trying something new. Now I am just finishing up the laundry, going to do some "at home working out" and then reading. All in all it was a great day.

Life in general has been wonderful lately. I am sure by typing those words I am just tempting Fate into doing something horrible, but I can't help it! After making some changes within myself after the new year, I feel wonderful about everything. I have more strength, more energy, am more positive. I hold nothing back, including my honesty, which has hurt others. One of my goals is not allow myself to be emotionally hurt by others without voicing my pain. I should be honest with others if I am going to be honest with myself.

I am already looking forward to the coming weekend. I have Friday off and Dylan and I are probably going to go and see a movie, do some shopping, and relax. Saturday I have an appointment for my car, will probably do some cleaning, and then Dylan and I are attending a party that evening. Sunday, I hope, will be my day to relax. If I accomplish all of my cleaning on Saturday there should be no reason why I should not take Sunday entirely for myself and just enjoy. Here is to keeping my fingers crossed that it will happen!

Positive thought for the day: If you expect honesty from others in your life, you should be willing to give it back. Withholding parts of yourself does more danger in the long run. Give and you shall receive and that includes your positive energy and love.