Dear Diary Thursday...

We had such a wonderful time last night! I got home and went to the gym. After I got home from there, I changed and Dylan and I headed over to Chet and Shane's to go over the final draft of the invitations, listen to some music, and then we just hung out with them and relaxed. What a fantastic evening of really good friends and really good laughs. It feels so good to be around people who share without boundaries, who are open and honest with you, who invite you into their homes, their hearts, and their lives and the only rules are that you have to share your energy and love with them as honestly as they are sharing with you. Thank you again to my boys for such a fun evening. After that, Dylan and I went home and collapsed into bed for some much needed sleep for today.

Today I am planning on getting my nails done and then going to the gym and then we are off to Dylan's folks house to help with some furniture moving. I have every intention of getting to bed early tonight and getting lots and lots of sleep, especially since I don't have to work tomorrow. Have I mentioned lately how much I love having Friday's off???

So, we have invitations done, the catering done, the cake done, the music done, the judge is ordered, the bride's dress is done, waiting on the bridesmaids dressed to show up, the men all need to get their clothes, the Dad's are wearing suits, the Mom's will be wearing the same color, just different outfits, we have our rings, I am getting the decorations this weekend.....pretty much everything is finished other than a few small things like getting the wedding license. I can't freaking believe it!!!! Thankfully Toni has kept my head on straight for the last while, kicking me when I need it, keeping me positive when I need it, telling me to shut the hell up when I need it. Now if I could just get Michelle to birth the child, all would be good in the World again. Oh, except I still don't get to see Ozzfest......

Dear Diary Wednesday morning...

Oh, bad way to start off the day! My beloved Ozzfest, the only concert that I have truly been living for my entire life....the one show that I was non-stop talking about because I was so excited...IS CANCELLED! How can I rush the stage and show my undying love to Rob Zombie and Ozzy??? I feel like pulling my toenails off with rusty pliers......

Weep for me......I have no reason to go on living now.......*sob*

Dear Diary Tuesday evening....

Today was a good day. I accomplished a lot at work and then had a fantastic, no an AMAZING workout at the gym, came home and made a good dinner for Dylan and I and now I am going to do a little bit of work and go to bed early.

I had two wonderful phone calls.....calls that just hearing the person's voice always makes you feel better. Normally that person is Dylan, but today it was Shane....twice. Just every once in awhile I realize how totally blessed I am to have such completely amazing people in my life, people that I can honestly call "friend" and Shane is one of them. He is interested in your life, but allows you to be part of his.....shares and takes in a healthy way. He is energetic, positive, loving, giving, and just beautiful in each and every way and I am so very, very blessed to call him one of my best friends. I love you Shane and thank the Goddess each and every day that I have such a person in my life as you. You know I would do anything, go anywhere, give my last breath for you, my friend. And that is how I feel about all of my true friends.

And then it makes me realize how sometimes you have people who are in your life that are negative, dishonest, deceitful, and strive to pull apart your friendships. People that sometimes are so full of jealousy that they can not stand to see you friends with anyone, let alone somebody they also consider a "friend" and it makes me angry....not with them but with myself for allowing those type of people to be in my circle of energy. Angry just with me. I guess the "Garden of Friendship" is going to be weeded again. Oh well, experience is a learning tool and I strive for lots and lots of lessons.

Hopefully tomorrow I will be less angry and less hurt, but I doubt it.

Dear Diary Monday...

Mood....bugged....

The weekend was long but very productive! Thursday night Dylan indulged me and we went to Home Depot and picked out a new soothing color for our bedroom to match the new bed we will be getting. It is called Natural Neutral and it is a beigy gray. Then we spent all day Friday painting...which was a fiasco! I did discover that Dylan is one of the most talented painters I have ever known and is just amazing with a roller! The fiasco is that I fell off the ladder and managed to hit the corner of my dresser and then turned around climbed back up the ladder and fell off of it again! I will be seeing my chiropractor this week sometime.

Saturday I spent the day with the folks doing a lot of shopping. Then Dylan and I had dinner with the Netzlers and did a bit of running around. And Sunday I spent the entire day in misery due to pain from Friday, and processed claims all day and all night. I ended up sleeping on my electric blanket so that I could make my back stop spasming. The joys of getting old.

And yes, I am bugged. I am just so very tired of having to rearrange my life and my schedule to convenience other people. That is totally catty and rude of me, but for some reason it is irritating me right now. I am especially bugged when I am doing something for somebody else, trying to be nice, but I have to rearrange my entire life to fit their convient schedule!!!! I will get over it, I just needed to vent and I will let it go.