Dear Diary Thursday....

Exciting news! Rocky Point Haunted House opens on Friday and if I don't go soon I am going to die! Take whichever part of that sentence as good news as you wish....

Anyways, I am trying desperatly to talk Toni into going RIGHT NOW because if I don't go, I know I am going to die....I can feel it!!

The other exciting news is that Jer-Bear came over yesterday afternoon and I got to see Alex and Brittney! They are so grown up that I almost did not even recognize them. Alex and Britt chased my cats all over the house, the cats kind of enjoyed it. All but Al who jumped up to Jer for protection, which was hilarious! We sat and talked for a long while about many things, but the best part of the conversation was discussing what we are doing for October this year....and I can't wait! We are going to go to haunted houses, we are going to have a scary movie party, we are going to have a Halloween party....I am just so excited to be doing all these things in my own house! I think I am going to be getting back into the swing of wanting to host parties again! Now if I can just figure out my costume.....

Anyways, it was great to spend time again with Jer and the kids...those two babies are so beautiful!

Okay, back to going to Rocky Point Haunted House.......Toni, I am going to die if we don't go RIGHT NOW!! In fact, we should probably go and get in line.....

Dear Diary Monday, part deux....

Okay, Toni and I are having a discussion at work and she is actually educating me....I love it! I think that with me making some decisions in my life and one of them being trying to be more positive, positive things are happening for me. Plus, there is nothing more fun that being at work and actually NOT WORKING.......

Thanks Toni......

Oh, and Tonster, look! There's a cow!!!

Dear Diary Wednesday...

My morning started off with me coming in to work with the realization that my Company has taken away some of the "tools" that I need to be able to do my job so that we can be "HIPAA compliant." Somebody else's morning will be starting with an e-mail from me basically saying "What the fuck are you doing?" Actually, I was not quite THAT harsh, but I did say that they are taking away my access to do my job in a reasonable amount of time and I would like the tools back that made my job "easier". Oh, that word just made me giggle when I think about it in relation to my job!

Last night after going to the gym, I came home to a dog! Oh, she was a beauty. Big black Labrador, looks to have had a bit of hound in her. By the time Dylan got home and we ate, she had turned from a really good dog, to a dog that wanted to eat my cats. Thankfully, we found the owners without much problem....the Polynesian family down on 4800 west that we had to do a "pig resuce" at. I was not very happy about returning the dog to them, but their children were so happy to have her back.

And I could not be more excited about the upcoming weekends that I have planned out! This weekend is the Swiss Days with Dylan and the folks and I am very excited about trying something new. Then next weekend is the opening of the FAIR and well, everybody knows how I feel about the Fair!!! To me, this is the start of my Autumn hobbies, so I am very, very excited!!!!!!

I also heard from a friend yesterday that I have not heard from in I don't know how long. Now she does not live in another country, just in Las Vegas, and we have been friends since junior high, but we only are able to really send an e-mail and respond a few times a year. I love this lady and still consider her to be one of my best friends. It is so nice to have a friendship with absolutely no expectations, no rules, no laws. We talk when we can, we see each other every few years, and we still love one another. I guess with my age, I appreciate a friendship like that, being able to talk on the phone, send an e-mail, meet when it is convenient for both parties....not just one of us. As strange as it may sound to some, I have many friends that I only hear from maybe twice a year....old friends from childhood. In my friendship I don't put rules on, I don't lay down laws. If we can get together, that is great. If the timing is not right and I don't see somebody except at special events, that works too. To that friend in Vegas, you know I love you Rustina!

Dear Diary Monday...

What a wonderful day! Work was obnoxiously busy again, but I enjoyed each and every moment that I was there. My boss and I had a bit of a "Coming to Jesus" talk, which was really nice and very eye openning. I do not expect anything to come of this meeting, but it was nice to be able to share some things with her. Toni kept me very amused all day with our discussions on multiple topics, especially her running into Mrs. Claus and then the desire to kick my ass for not being there!

After work I ran to JCPenney's to return some bras that I purchased yesterday...all which are WAY too big, but that is what I get for not trying them on since I have lost weight. Mom and I then headed to the gym for a fantastic, and effective workout. I ran into a couple of my new "buddies" that play racquetball and each time I see them, the more they are talking me into bringing Dylan down to learn how to play....and I think I am going to try it! Racquetball looks right up my alley....physically challenging, lots of swearing, sometimes you can hit somebody really, really hard with the ball....all sounds really fun!

I am also very excited because Dylan and I are going to spend Friday with my folks doing something new.....we are going to go to Swiss Days up in Midway. Now, I have never been to Swiss Days but everybody that has gone has told me how awesome it is.....hundreds of booths, great entertainment, the entire town is decorated, and wonderful food. It almost sounds better than Park City....almost! And my folks are so excited to be spending the day with Dylan and I that I thought that they were going to cry!!!!

Once again, thanks to the Netzlers for such a wonderful barbecue at their house. You two are just what the doctor ordered for a change in attitude! Thank you for being such fantastic friends...especially you Toni for dragging my ass out of such a bad attitude last week!

Dear Diary Sunday...

This weekend is exactly what the doctor ordered, thanks mostly to Toni and Rob and their wonderful BBQ!

Friday I got home from work and just mostly relaxed and went to bed fairly early, as the depression was not lessening.

Saturday Dylan worked the entire day so I spent the day with my Daddy. We cleaned up my yard, planted all of my Fall Mum's, and then proceeded to clean out the garage. Most of the stuff in the garage is going to the Salvation Army but there are two "piles"....one of camping stuff for my sister Janet and the other is stuff going over to my folks house. Then when Dylan got home we headed over to the Netzlers for possibly THE BEST barbecue they have ever hosted. The meat was absolutely the best, the salads were INCREDIBLY, the desserts were to die for and the company was unbelievable! I honestly can say that I have never laughed so much and so HARD in my entire life....mostly thanks to Jer-Bear. It was everything that my heavy heart and spirit needed and I walked away with the worst headache but feeling like the weight of the world was lifted.

Today I spent the day shopping with Mom. I had to get some new work pants and ended up getting levi's and also new bras. We then headed to Petsmart and Wal-Mart and I can now say I am totally broke, but very, very happy. I bought enough cat supplies and groceries for Dylan and I so I won't need to worry about spending money unless it is for a necessity. The only thing I have not purchased yet is sweaters, but I can be patient and get those in a couple of weeks. Plus, I honestly did not see any sweaters today that were my style, which was probably a good thing.

Thank you again to everyone for your support, your love, and to Toni for kicking my ass when I needed it. I knew I could get through this horrible depression and everyone helped get me out quicker. I pray it will be a VERY long time before I ever experience anything like that ever again!!!