Friday, February 04, 2005

Dear Diary Friday...


Work yesterday was just non-stop. I did a 12 hour shift AT work and then went home and did another 3 hours and then was up all night thinking about it. I wish they paid over time for the lack of sleep the job causes!!!

And work yesterday was....interesting. I was offered a promotion and a raise by the vice president of our company. I turned it down. They wanted me to be over the new group we have obtained....the group that I hate with all of my heart and soul that is causing people to have nervous breakdowns, burst into tears at work, and two of my managers to consider giving their resignation. Nope, I don't think I would be a positive addition to that group. I WILL be training the person that I asked them to consider, which they did and she agreed to it. I WILL be the "official behind the scenes" person to make the vice president happy, but my name won't be all over the account. I won't be the person that the client can go and scream out, demand ridiculous things from, and just in general use as a punching bag. I went home very unsure that I had done the right thing, but after working another three hours on this account AND talking with Dylan about it, I feel much that my refusal of the position was in my best interest. It just comes down to the simple fact that life is too short to spend it unhappy and with ulcers. I like my job, but my JOB is not WHO I AM....and I don't want it to become that way.

Looking forward to this weekend, for the most part. Dylan and I are doing dinner and a movie tonight. Tomorrow is up in the air. I need to come into work either Saturday or Sunday and I am not sure what day I want to do that. Plus, I get to go to Tonsters house for her official "I am going to be a Hollow Human Being on February 10th" party and Grandpa is making my cheesecake!! YEAH!!!!!

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Dear Diary Thursday...


I finally slept a full night last night and have SO MUCH ENERGY TODAY! It was wonderful to wake up to my alarm, knowing that I did not move hardly at all the entire night, slept REAL just feels good.

Work is just total insanity right now. I am working at my place of employment AND taking work home every night. We picked up a huge client and we are totally not prepared for the windfall of claims that it has brought. They are pulling people off of their regular duties to help and everything is just out of control....with no end in sight. Do I see this getting better? about 4 or 5 months. The good part of this is that I am getting paid to process claims ( paid by the claim), getting paid for my regular job, AND getting it is like working three jobs!!! The money will be helpful, the lack of any type of social life will suck. I am taking precautions so that I can have some time "away" from this Friday. Friday is my "date night" with Dylan and I am very much looking forward to it. We are going to go OUT to dinner and then to a movie....just the two of us I believe. And thanks to people like Tonster who have helped me keep a calm head of my shoulders and kept me focused on what is most important....which is not my job.

Speaking of important, I have decided that it is time for me again to weed the garden of Friends. That sounds so cold, but I think it is best for me. I am tired of putting out a great deal of energy.....making calls and sending e-mails, to have little to no response from a couple of individuals. I am not saying I am severing ties and throwing people to the side of the road, but I can no longer give so freely of my energy when very little, if anything, is ever returned by those folks. I don't think it is a bad thing for individuals to move to a different standing in your can never have too many acquaintances. But this is still just a thought rolling around in my head....

Wednesday, February 02, 2005


I hope you have a wonderful year!!!

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Dear Diary Sunday...


I can't really catch up on this weekend as I did not do a helluva lot!

Friday I was off work and Dylan and I did some window shopping and grabbed some movies, we came home and relaxed and watched "Harold and Kumar go to White Castle" which was not as funny as everyone had made it out to be. Then I went to bed.

Saturday was a totally lazy day. Dylan and I stayed in ALL DAY and did not a damn thing! All that I accomplished yesterday was making our favorite 7 layer salad and taking a shower....and I am not kidding. We watched "Alien vs Predator" and "When Will I Be Loved". Alien was a good show, the other was an independent film that was very irritating so we turned it off before I blew a gasket. Then we watched tv and went to bed.

Today I am taking my mom grocery shopping and then after that, all is up in the air. I think I might be moving my den around a bit but I believe that is the highlight. Oh, and I will cook some dinner for Dylan and I . Again, another wonderful lazy day.

This week I am getting back on track with the gym and my eating healthy. The only bad day I should have is when I take Tonster to lunch for doing my taxes, but that's it.