Dear Diary Saturday....

Friday night with the Poor's and all of the friends was wonderful! Shane had me rolling on the floor with laughter, especially when the picture of Shane, Chet, and Dylan camping out together and prancing through the woods chasing butterflies and squirrels was brought up! Ah, I always knew I had it my Dylan to be a bit effeminate......well, maybe more than a bit....

Anyways, Jeremy had a great time but, unfortunately, Dylan and I could not join them at the Girlie Bar afterwards as Dylan's cold has moved into his throat and lungs and going ANY PLACE that would have smoke would have probably killed him. Plus, he was exhausted, so it was time to get him home.

I am watching a friend of mine go through the worst year of his life, and it is breaking my heart. I was talking with Dylan and I don't think their is anything more heart breaking than to watch a man with tears in his eyes. I think seeing women cry has become so common place that it does not bring a great deal of emotions for me, but to watch a man, especially a man who I am close to, be brought to tears actually causes pain in my heart. What an emotional year for all of us. I have watched more people mature, become better people, become worse people, than ever before in my 32 years. People who I have questioned their friendships have started to become the people I "knew" that they could be, to step up into their rightful place as a "friend" and co-exist in harmony. I have also watched people I believed to be good friends crumble into malicious demons in the face of adversity. I have also witnessed strength...strength in emotions, strength in spirituality, just pure and honest strength to over come this last year. My love goes out to that man, more than I could ever place into words.

Keep the positive energy coming, Dylan is still desperatly needing it.....

Dear Diary Friday....

It has been a very long week at work. Today, being Friday, is normally a dress down day. However, since we have a potential "buyer" coming in, we are all dressed up.....including me in a long black skirt and a black and gold shirt....and not gold as in LAME', but a toned down gold. I just want this week to be over with.....

Had a fantastic evening with Dee last night. We unfortunately, could not partake of the restaraunt of her choice as it is now CLOSED, but we made do with Dos Seranos. The food was delightful but the company was the most enjoyable. She had me in tears with the laughter and we discussed many issues, one of them being friendship. Nothing agitates me more than finding out what some people's opinions are when they are based on NOTHING. I understand that opinions are like bums and we all have one, but please, PLEASE base your opinion on FACT and not on ASSUMPTION. Also, if you have an opionion and you are given cold, hard fact to the contrary....LISTEN TO IT! Anyways, it was an evening that I hope to do over and over again, as Dee and I have decided we need to do this MORE OFTEN!

It was also very nice to see Jennifer Hoffman. She was looking better than I have seen her look in a very long time. There was a "light" of happiness about her that I have missed.

Good news for Jeffy....SUNDANCE IS OVER! He has been working like a crazed man for the last several weeks, forgoing a lot of rest for this yearly event. Thankfully, it is almost to a complete end and he can, once again, join the land of the living.......

Sad news.....Dylan is EXTREMELY sick! The cold has moved into his throat and he no longer has a voice. He has taken the high road and is doing everything he can to get better. Hopefully, with all of his vitamins, zinc, and medicine, he will kick this one before it has a chance to move into his lungs. Send him positive energy, won't you?

Dear Diary Wednesday....

Oh, Gym TRAUMA! I went and nobody was there...just myself and my mom...no Connie, no Danny, no JJ, no Dee, no Dylan....I was very lonely. HOWEVER, I managed to get in an excellent workout and also managed to make both of my legs so sore that I had to call it quits 10 minutes early! Oh well. I won't be able to hit the gym tomorrow or Friday, so they have two days to get better!

Work was......entertaining. I am usually the person stressing over EVERYTHING...all of the IN boxes not being empty, all of the appeals not being researchec, all of the projects not being completed.....everything. But, my attitude has changed and I am just trying to "do what I can do" and go home....which has left the two other researchers to step up. WELL, one actually BLEW up today....she was so overwhelmed (really? NO SHIT!) that she had a meltdown!! And was I supportive? Kinda. I just looked at her and said "I know how you feel. I have felt that way by each and every Thursday for HOW LONG??" I was very impressed with myself as I did not swear the whole time. I know she is mad at me, and once again, I am okay with that. My first project is almost complete and I have to clean up my area to a spit shine tomorrow...so those will be only concerns!

Oh, and TODAY is Jer's b-day....call him if you can!!!

And on a good note, did not get a chance to talk to my niece last night, but I talked to my other niece and Corrine is doing fine......YEAH!!! I can still be excited about being a Great Aunt...AGAIN!!!

Dear Diary Tuesday....

Okay, let me get all of you caught up. Sunday my niece, the beautiful Corrine, came over to the house....FINALLY. She is the one I helped raise and she is....pregnant. Now, that would not be so bad but she is 20 and HE is only 17, and barely 17 at that. They are not a couple anymore but he wants to try and be part of the babies life. Anyways, I had a HUGE issue when I found out she was pregnant.....could not decide on whether I should kill her, quit speaking to her, yell at her, or hug her. So, she knows how I am and has been avoiding me like I have cooties. She did not even come out to see me on Christmas because she was so scared. Well, she came out on Sunday, sat on my lap (mind you, she is almost 6 feet tall but barely weights as much as a mouse) and we loved and cooed at each other and all is well. I told her I loved her regardless of anything she does, I would support her 100%, like I have always done, and no matter what she does in life, I am still her Auntie L. Well, after we talked and hugged and all that gushy stuff, she has asked me to be with her, holding her hand, when she delivers in April...and I, of course, said yes as it is a huge honor for her to ask me that....especially after how scared she was. That is the good news. Here is the bad news.......when I got home from work my mom sat me down to let me know Corrine had been in a horrible car accident today....a woman ran a red light and broadsided my niece. Well, Corrine is fine, she has had a few contractions, went to the hospital and they released her. SOOOOO, I was almost in tears because I was so worried about her. I hate that!! I have already called and she is not at home, but at the hospital again because the passenger in her car received whiplash and his neck started to hurt so she took him to the hospital. That is my niece, always trying to help out the other person and not thinking of herself.

Gym was awesome tonight! I did 50 minutes on my favorite machine!!! And I am talking 120 strides per minute, so I did a full aerobic work out for 45 minutes. I am sore, but just a little. I also did weights while doing the elipitcal machine, so the upper and lower body got the work out!! YEAH FOR ME!!!!!!!

Don't forget....Jer-bear turns 32 this week......

Dear Diary Monday..

I am so mad that I almost can not form a word. I got home from work, was deciding on whether or not to go to the gym as my tummy was acting funky and I know it is probably going to be INSANE because it is a "holiday" and then the clincher happened. My mom walks up to me and says "Why did you hang up on Terry Saturday?" Not "Did Terry call on Saturday" or "Terry says he called on Saturday, did you noticed?"....nope, just a nice accusation. So I look at her and said, "I WAS WITH YOU AND DADDY ALL DAY SATURDAY, EXACTLY WHEN COULD I HAVE HUNG UP ON HIM?" Apparently my brother said he called collect from St. George on Saturday, I answered the operator and hung up on him! Hmmm.....interesting since I was out until 7:30 that night, nowhere near our home phone, and when I did get home the fucking phone did not ring once! I explained all of this to my mother, like I needed to explain to her that we were NOT HOME ON SATURDAY, and I don't get an apology, nothing. I get this glare, like I am fucking LYING TO HER!!!! She then thinks, hmmmm....well maybe the answering machine picked up and the operator disconnected the call, or maybe he called the wrong phone number....still no apology. So, here I am sitting at my computer SEETHING!!!! No going to the gym, as I am even more furious as I think about it!

Anyways, work has been insane as it is the beginning of the year, but nothing that I can not handle. My desk is out of control, but I am not freaking....only doing what I can do and then going home.......
I

Dear Diary Sunday....
What a relaxing day. I decided today would be the "Lorene Day" and I have yet to do anything other than shower and watch tv....and I am loving every minute of it! I know that when springs rolls around, my days will be nothing but insanity with yard work, so I am going to enjoy every free moment that I have until then.

Yesterday with the folks was wonderful. We went shopping all over, had dinner, did more shopping, had to retrace some steps as my father lost his keys, and we did not end up getting home until 7:00, which is VERY late for them. I then took a nice bubblebath and then talked on the phone with Dylan. It was just nice to have both of my folks to myself, spend time out with them doing things we all enjoy, and I could tell that they both needed to get out of the house something DESPERATE. It is so cool to have parents as wonderful, and as playful, as they both are.

Colors for this week are: Monday-White; Tuesday-Black; Wednesday-Brown; Thursday-Violet; Friday-Pink

Miss you Jeffy.....