Friday, August 03, 2001

Okay, this is how I feel and I don't give a fuck if I hurt feelings or not.

Had a really bad day at work and I decided that, be damned, I am going to have a good Friday. Soooo the mood is trying to turn sour, but I will use it for the sarcastic food that I need. Let me tell you so far about the morning. I have decided that on my customer service group, out of the three customer service groups that we have for this company, I was placed on the most pathetic and lazy group. Why, you ask? Because the same two people on this group continually call in sick. I find people that call in sick for ridiculous reasons to be a drain on the oxygen that feeds our planet. HER reason for calling in sick today, that she will be late (which in her world means coming in around 3 hours before she leaves) is that she is "tired" because she didn't get any sleep. Hmmmm, interesting note....she had all day off yesterday!!!! She works every day but Thursday, as you can tell, four ten hour days. Now I would not feel so much anger towards this reason if she had a very busy schedule with many things going on in her life (like most of my other friends, especially my boys), but she has NOTHING!!! I can also understand calling in sick for a "mental health" day, but she doesn't do a damn thing when she is her!!!!!!

Also just as another note to my work, the "grunting girl" is driving me nuts this morning. She has now successfully told me the same story three time in a matter of less than 2 minutes. So, I very politely (yeah, what the fuck ever!) told her to please quit rambling and to take her meds before she talks herself hoarse before my shift even starts!!!! Boy, that felt good!

On to another note, have you ever had a friend that you can just tell that the end of the friendship is near because they seem to be getting 1) too high maintenance, 2) too demanding, 3) a drain on your psyche, and 4) too big for their pants????

Wow, that felt good!!!!!!!!

Thursday, August 02, 2001

Want to know how the day is going?...........

Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck off, Fuck off, Fuck off, Fuck off, Fuck off, Fuck off, Fuck off, Fuck off, Fuck off, Fuck off, Fuck off, Fuck off, Fuck off, Fuck!

In a nushell.......

Good morning!

Well, I can tell that it is close to the weekend because I am getting crankier and crankier the closer it gets. Why? Because I enjoy my weekends so much that the "getting there" is so difficult that I am actually unbearable to be around at work! It might have something to do with the crap going on here at work, but that is a different story.

Anyways, I am glad to hear that Gracie is doing well with her knees. I knew that they couldn't keep her down and she has always struck me as somebody that healed very quickly. So, hopefully she will be up around, skipping down the halls and the sidewalks soon.

Scott, you know I love you no matter what.

Hope everybody has a great day!!!

Wednesday, August 01, 2001

Hey Scottie....how do I add the cool parts on the blog to put everybody's blog link and all that neat stuff?????

So far the day has been pretty eventful. Have a co-worker who is coming in late, then going on downtime and then not answering calls. So because of her, the rest of us have not been able to do our downtime. Oh well. Also, a number of my co-workers have decided to treat me as the acting supervisor since mine is out with a broken hip and complain to me about other co-workers and expect me to do something about it. To which I have just been nicely telling them to please complain to the acting supervisor. Somewhere, that has been lost on them because they continue to come to me. I am getting really good at just ignoring everybody around me. Wonder if that would work outside of the office as well. Maybe I should try my own experimentation.

Hope the day is going well for everybody!

Hmmmmm.....

Had an interesting, and insightful, discussion last night and I have come to some conclussion. The first conclusion is that I air too much "dirty laundry" on my blogs. The criticism that I received was very much appreciated in regards to that area. I think it stems from the fact that if I put a "thought" out on the blog, too many people read into it as being in regards to themselves, which is not always the case, but they are getting hurt by what is written. The second conclusion is that I have viewed this blog as a cathartic means of expressing my anger. Once again, it is being taken as a "personal attack" by other folks who choose to read the blog. So my form of "catharsis" is become not so cathartic. So, I guess what I am saying is that I probably won't be spending much time blogging unless it is in reference to happy, shiny events in my life.

Hope it is a good day!!!!

Tuesday, July 31, 2001

Okay, here is a word to the WISEST...if somebody tell you something, like, "I have strong feelings for you" and you don't say anything back, and the person that said it is FEMALE, you are in a lot of trouble! YOU MUST RESPOND!!!! Even if it is to say, oh, something like "Well I don't have strong feelings for you but I would like to sleep with you." at least you are acknolweding that they spoke something about their feelings and you heard it. Women are weird like that. They like to know that 1) you are really listening, 2) you have the ability to respond and form a sentence, and 3) they like to see if you are going to turn tail and run. Now, for those females, like myself, who were born with too many man qualities, we are more prone not to let you know what our "true" feelings are until you let your guard down to us first. So, here is your test for the day kids. If a woman walks up to you and says "I like you a lot more than as a friend" do you a) laugh in her face, b) cry hysterically and run off c) let her know that you heard her and you need time to digest that information and will get back to her, d) stand there with no response or e) all the above? (Can you tell that I work with men???)

Anyways, the evening was good. I went to the gym after work for my 60 minute routine and then went home and did NOTHING! I was shocked because I had so many things that I wanted to do but just didn't have the motivation. HOWEVER, woke up this morning with all the motivation in the world!! So, gym after work and then doing some cleaning. Wanna help???????

Monday, July 30, 2001

Yup....

Spent the weekend doing stuff for ME and only ME!!! How selfish, eh??? I am sure I probably pissed off the whole work, but too damn fucking bad!!! I got three gallons of paint up on my den walls and ceiling and it looks sooo much better. The only part of this weekend that I regret is that I did not get to see my Scottie and Jeffy. However, my honey-bunny told me that they had a great time on Friday night and my boys looked great, so that is what matters. Also, Scottie sounded like he was getting pulled in every direction to see every person, so I am glad that I wasn't in the way. Maybe next time......

But I digress.....the painting of my den was very cathartic. It is only about once or twice a year that I actually take time out to do something that I want and this was it! Unfortunately, that put the rest of the world on hold while I did that. I think I am making myself sound more selfish than I truly was. I did go to a b-day party that I was invited to, oh about 4 months ago, on Saturday night, but only stayed for 2 hours and then had to go home and fall asleep due to 1) exhaustion and 2) too much alcohol. Won't be drinking for awhile, I do believe. I also had an opportunity to speak with Rita (Marc's mother) about the upcoming trial and taking care of her house while she is gone...which won't be hard since she is use to being away so much these days....and all she will let me do is check on the house, make sure the plants are all getting watered. Also got a lot of cleaning done at the house, a lot of stuff thrown away, and the garage cleaned out for my dad....so I guess I wasn't too selfish.

As for Connie and Gracie....I am excited to hear that Gracie's surgery went really well, other than having to be somewhat awake during the whole thing. As for not being able to see her this weekend, that was unfortunate and I wish that I had gone up to see her. I just know how I felt after surgery and I didn't want anybody bugging me, visiting me, looking at me, for the first few days while I was home, so I have decided to give her a little time before I start REALLY bugging her. Hope she will still love me for giving her a little re-coop time!!