Dear Diary Tuesday...

Having a "day" that actually started last night. I'm very tired, all emotional. I am exhausted from being disgusted and hurt by "friends". I am exhausted by allowing myself to be continually taken emotionally advantage of. I am tired of always putting myself "out there" for other people, only to be used as an emotional punching bag. I am tired of letting people feed off of my energy. I am tired of being me. I would like to be somebody else for awhile...not sure who I would like to be, but just somebody else. It is going to be a day where I am just going to stay to myself, for everybody elses safety. I have so much on my mind right now and feel that I can turn nowhere....everybody has their own problems. It is just one of those days that I did not feel the worth of waking up. Hope this feeling goes away soon.

Oh, and I have somebody visiting my backyard at night and leaving our back gate open. That makes me feel safe.....

Dear Diary Monday...

Hmmm.....go to www.kabalarians.com for your free name analysis......check out mine....Brief Analysis

The name of Lorene gives you a responsible, reserved, and dignified nature, able to find a certain amount of success in anything you undertake. You have an appreciation for the finer and deeper aspects of life. Your scholarly, studious interests incline you to art, literature, philosophy, music, and drama. You wonder about the deeper aspects of life contained in religious theories and occult beliefs. Others may consider you to be aloof and unemotional since you often find it difficult to express spontaneously. They could interpret your quietness as disinterest and aloofness, for they do not realize the depth of your feelings and thoughts. You require time alone, especially in the outdoors, to cope with the pressures of life.

Did you get the goose bumps.....

Dear Diary Sunday....

Weekend was wonderful. I left work on Friday after putting in my 8 hours and met up with Dylan for dinner and a bit of running around. Unfortunately, my body was exhausted and we had to call it an early night. I was in bed by 9:00 pm and slept straight through until Saturday morning at 8:00 am. Oh, and Toni and Rob, I spent my Hot Topics gift certificate and got a beautiful necklace with a cat and cool book on Vampires....thank you both again!!! Oh, and there is a chick at Hot Topics who actually told me she thought for sure I was a gal in the magazine MOD who had done a pin-up lay out, Marilyn Monroesque.....I was so flattered!!

Saturday was my first full day with Dylan and his new schedule and we had a great time. We hit all of our usual haunts, Restoration Hardware, Pottery Barn, Williams and Sonoma, etc. I just had the most fantastic time, we laughed and played and just reconnected in a way that we have not in awhile. Oh, and I got to experience the Post Office on a Saturday, and Dylan made it most entertaining.

Today was not so good. I got up, not feeling as spunky as I thought I would. Ended up getting ready to go out with the folks and dry heaving for about an hour. I put on a tough face and went to breakfast....which was not a good time. We then had our shopping to do and I ended up being so sick that I was not fun at all. We finally made it home and my temperature skyrocketed. I ended up collapsing on the couch and sleeping, in and out of a delerium, for two hours. The temp finally broke and now I have a really bad headache. I think the stomach issue has passed.....thank my Goddess!!

This week is shaping up to be out of control, but thanks to my "spur of the moment" friends, it will end wonderfully! The "six pack gang" is going out to Wendover again for Thursday night and I can not wait! I have needed to get away, be around some positive individuals and reconnect. I know that my spirit is not the only one that needs to be reenergized, so I am looking forward to the giving and sharing. I am also planning on asking for next Monday and Tuesday off so that I can get some things done around this house that have been bothering me.

Oh, and great news! Spirits, the Halloween store, is now open!! Dylan and I went there on Saturday and I am worse than a kid in a candy store....I want everything! I am planning on going on a huge shopping spree in the next couple of weeks, so if you want to go with me and watch a grown woman "oh and ah" over severed limbs and burning corpses, let me know!