Dear Diary Friday....

This is how it has started already....I woke up and spent some of my morning, like I do each morning, watering all of my herbs and plants on our porch. Finished up and turned around and the sky had opened up and was letting loose with buckets of rain! Okay, it was funny.

I woke up this morning with a different out look to the day. After a very emotional day at work yesterday, thanks to Tonster making me cry loud enough that everyone in her department ran away, I have realized that there are reasons why I have weeded out problems in my life. Life is short and every day and every moment should be cherished and enjoyed, not fretted over with stress. I have several very close friends that I love more than oxygen, which I am thankful for. The days are gone where I need to surround myself with dozens on top of dozens of indivduals, "friends", who know little to nothing of who I truly am. Gone are the days where I need to always be the strong one, and I now can enjoy letting my guard down, being who I truly am.....a mean, yet tough, bitch. Gone are the days where I give my time, my respect, my love without needing it returned. I am a beautiful, vibrant creature and I deserve it in return. If you do not have time for me, do not expect it to be given to you. If you do not allow me into your life fully, do not expect to be allowed into mine. I have surrounded myself with people who I would go to, without question, at any time....just to give them a hug. And those are the people I need around me, deserve around. I am truly blessed.

I told you I woke up in a weird mood......

Dear Diary Wednesday...

It was a great day...up until the last three hours. Out of nowhere I had a home processor come in, come up to my desk, and throw a TEMPER TANTRUM at me, loud enough that others could here, over something that I have no control over! Apparently this processor thinks that it is my job to follow how her claims are processed and to make sure that they are completed in a timely manner so she can get her bonuses. Yes, I know that may sound insane to you and I, but apparently it doesn't to her!!! Needless to say, I was so outraged, and taken aback, that I had to step away from my desk and go to my "calming place".....Toni's desk!!!!! And that was after I told my boss what had happened.....between clenched teeth. Needless to say, by the time I had left that day, my processor's boss had been made aware of it....and the department manager was also aware of it....and those two are not very happy. I am thinking the processor better be looking for a new job...

On a happier note......it is time for the Utah State Fair!! Toni is so excited about me chasing her around after eating cotton candy. She has asked me to make sure that I get a lot of the cotton candy + saliva combination that gets on my hands into her hair!! And then she wants to make sure that when I eat so much garbage that I become nauseated that I direct the potential hurl at her shoes!!! Yeah for Toni!!!! Seriously, I am looking forward to some wonderful fun. Especially with "virgin" Chet, who has not been to the Fair. Shane and I have something special for him........