Dear Diary Sunday....

Weekend has been crap!!! I got the stomach flu on Friday morning and it has not loosened its grip on me yet. I did manage to pick up the beautiful Bridesmaid's dressed and get my Daddy fitted in his suit....but that has been all I have managed to do this weekend. This bug has kept me on the couch in pain all weekend long...not exactly how I plan on spending my weekends!!!

I have discovered that my initital thought about removing people from my life was not exactly the right decision. I have put a lot of energy into a friendship that has been extremely one sided and dishonest. I can't continue to keep putting out my energy and my love, only to be excluded from the other person's life....and only involved when it is at their convenience. But I believe change is always a good thing, so I am not looking at this "change" in a relationship as a starting point. I can have "friends" that are not extremely close, and then I can have friends that are like siblings.....but siblings that I love and cherish vs the ones that I currently have. Everyone grows and changes, and it is time for that in my life.

Oh, and speaking of siblings....my other sister can now go fuck herself. She made a huge scene at my niece's wedding on Friday night when I told her I had to take my folks home. After that, she is now going to be treated like all of my other siblings....as acquaintances. My priority is to my folks, and if they want to leave an event and I am their ride, then we leave.

And all of my love and energy is with Shane and Chet currently. The Boys have had a rough week and weekend and I just want them to know how much I love and appreciate them and would give anything in the Universe to help them and be there for them. I hope you know how much I adore you both.