Dear Diary Tuesday....

I have blisters on the ankles from where my "expensive" work out shoes rubbed that are the size of apricots!!!! Not even putting bandaids on them made it hurt less!!! God Damn Shoes!!

Anyways, did another evening of going to the gym and, other than my feet, I felt great! I ran into Toni's in-laws....the Netzler clan. Rob's father had NO IDEA who I was, but regardless, I adore that man! He is so soft spoken.

Work has been good. I have been busy, the attitude has been kept positive, the atmosphere is a lot lighter around there, and everyone but me is complaining about how overloaded they are. It is almost amusing! Now, I am not saying I am not overloaded, but I just do what I can, delegate a great deal, and go home. I think the change in attitude AND going back to the gym has helped a great deal.

Okay, about going to the gym and paying more attention to what I eat.....I could barely keep my eyes opened at work today! I finally figured out it is because I am not eating hardly any sugars lately, living on iced tea (that's normal for me), and working out. I had a very healthy, HUGE salad today from Cafe Rio (thanks to the Tonster) and I thought, "Oh, this will wake me up!" Actually, it was the complete opposite. Yep, apparently refined sugars have apparently kept me kicking, and very possibly, kept me alive, maybe preserved, and I never really knew!!! The next few days are going to be hard, but I am sticking to my new outlook on life!!!

Speaking of attitude and out look, I have been fighting some major "blues" lately. With the impending 33 birthday (which is really not that big of a deal) and the anniversary of Scott's passing, this year just seems to be a little more somber for me. It will be the first birthday I have had in many a year that I won't hear that voice calling me, wishing his favorite "negress" a happy birthday. God, I miss him. I was hoping it would get easier, but I guess you just learn to cope. Oh well, he will be missing a great birthday bash!!!